Sunday, May 21, 2017

Astaamaha Jeceelka Xun




Kuligeen ereeyga jacaayl wan maqalnay siyaabo kala duwan baan u aragnaa, ama ugu qeexna.

Jacaylka wuxu leeyahay dhadhamo kala duwan, xaalado fara badan, iyo astaamo kala duwan.
Waxa jira Jacayl macaan aduunyada dhaan ku qurxinaya, ka farxinaya. waxaad is weydinnaysa ma jacayl ba jira kanan xanajinayaa ? si xun ku dareensinaya ?

Haa wu jiraa walaashay ama walalkey, lakin aan ku sheego astaamo aad ku gareneysiid wixi jacayl xun ah ama jacal kugu habooneyn.

Jacaylka fiicaan ee caafiimaadka leh qodobahaan ba lagu ogaada:

1-Qofka aad jeclatoo aad rabtiid inaad guursato maha qof ku liidaya ama ku caaynaya. Qofka si dhab ah ku jecel waligiis kuma qooro waxa ama aray dhamqinaya dareenkaga o dhawacyaa isku kalsoonidada.

Marka hadaad ku jirto xariir u sifaadas leh, fadlan ka bax, daadka isma badalaan, xata markeey ka cudur dartaan o yaboohan inay is badali donaan, waxad arkii doonta iney ficilka mid ka daran inay sameyaan , wayoo? "Ruux muumin ah laba jeer lagama qaniino", waa xadiith saxiix ah.

2-Qofka ku jecel gacaan kuma qadayo: taan wa wadiix lakin waan si fahfahinayaa.

Qofna gacantiisa maha inu ku saro, niinkaga ama xajiigaga inu ku "adabiyo" maha, qof walbo naftiisa isaga aya masuul ka yahay, qofki gacan ku sara wu kugu xad gudubay. ka carar! Reerkaga u sheeg. Qoof aad ku kalsoon tahay u sheeg. ha u amuusin. ha ka amuusin. ha qarsan. Doqon ma tihiid xoog laa'.

Marmar waxed ka fikiri doonta khasatan hadad reerkaga ku qasabtay inay aqbalaan ninka inaay tahaay inaad u dulqaadatid, ey calaftaadu sida tahay. waad iska aqbalaysaa qalaadka adigu xoog la'aan ah, waxaad isku dhihi kartaa "waa ninkeyga illahaay ba masu'ul ikaga dhigay" lakin fikriigaas waa qalaad. Illaahy qiwamadaa nimanka wu siyeey lakin dulmii ilahaay ma ogolaa, isagaa caadil ah, diil iyo clay iyo liidis waa dulmii, furitaankana markaso kale wa xaal illahaay ku baneyey ka fa'edeyso.

Wey adag tahay markad dhaqankaas u barato inaad ficli ka qabtoo, lakin duceysoo, ilahaay bari, qof u sheeg, illahaay faraj bu ku furayaa, xoogna wu kisiinaya sidaad uga hoortagtiid arinkaas fool xun ka badan. Illaahay ha ku garagaro walaashay ama walalkay!

3-Qofka ku jecel niyad jab kugu ma ridayoo:

Qofka ku jackal si dhab ah hormarkagu jecelyahay. wu ku dhiroo galinayaa, niyad wu ku dhisaaya, hadaad jecelshahy inaad daqtarad noqotiid wuxu ku dhiro galinayaa inaad iskuulka isku qortiid, wuxu isku dayoo inu jamacadda ka bixiyoo, ama ilmaha ka hayo intaad wax baraneysiid, taas hadu karin qof ku cawisaa bu ka qabanya. mar walbo wuxu isku dayaya inu si uun ku cawiyoo kalimaad wanagsan iyo dhiroo galin ha u yaraate

Qofka ka maseerya o horumar kula jecleen wuxu isku dayaya mar walbo inu niyaad jab kugu rido, hankaga hoos u dhig bu ku dhahayaa (ama kugu dhaheysaa), mar walba excuse bu haystaa sidu kugu diido waxyabaha aad rabtiid.

Mar walba doroo qof kor ku qadaa, u haankaga kudu dhiro galiyaa.


4-Qofka ku jecel kuma cambaaraynayo:  qof qaladkaga daba galaya maha, o qaladkaga u fadhiyoo.

Kuligeen dhaman wan heysana sifoyiin qurux badan , iyo sifoyiin fool xun ah. waa bini adanimoo, waa daadnimada, kuligeen qalad wu naga dhacaa, lakin qofki xikmad leh qaladkiisa wax bu ka bartaa (llaahayna wu u toobad keena) lakin qofki xuman kula raba qaladkaga uun bu eega, u radsadaa, qofki ku jecel qaladkaga si wanagsan o cambaaren ku jirin bu ku sheega, laking qofka jahiilka wu kugu cayaa, wu kugu tuntaa, wayoo? marku qaladdada u kugu cayoo naftiisa gun dhaw bu koor u qadaaya.

Qof kaso kale naftiisa ma jecela, adigana kuma jeclaan karo. Qofkaas ka digtonoo o ka taxaddar!

5-Qof ku jecel reerkaga iyo asxabtadada bu wanaajiyaa:

Somalida waxy ku mahmahda "Qofki ku jecel eeygaga bu jecelada". Qalad ha ii fahmiin; reerkaga iyo asxabtada kuma shabhiin eey. lakin mahmahda waxa laga wadaa ilaa xad dhafkaas bu qofki dhab ku jecel waxad adiga jecelshahy wanjiyaa. waa astaanta jaceelka runta ah.

hodo saan wanaag u mujiin, hadaba kuma jeclaa. HAA, kuma jeclaa! Waxa ha nixin waad dareemi karta.


Mahadsanidin. :)

By: Asia Aboosy





Saturday, May 13, 2017

On Toxic Relationships..A Poem.


She didnt know what a balance relationship looks like,
What a healthy relationship looks like,

So when he hoovered her with his attention and time;
she was hooked 
like a junkie
His junkie 
Got her all addicted to his lies
his eyes,
his empty smiles..
He promised her the stars,
the universe,
his loyalty, royalty
And
A forever...

She didn't know what a balance/ healthy relationship looks like
So..when he was mad, he wanted her to
Go mad..
Be sad..
As if her being mad and sad meant:
She was loyal
that her love was real

He drove her
crazy..
Insane
Unstable.
Insecure
And unsure..
He did it all purposely
With one purpose in mind..
To break her.
To make her and,
mold her into a thing that was compatible to his whims

You see,

There were days when...
She used to question her sanity.
Pushed everything and everyone and hid behind her sheets..
Days when she felt the world shaking...breaking her knees
An earthquake paralyzing her spine

She used to wonder if;

If heartache ever lead to sudden death
If heartache was a curable disease
if her heart would ever bounce back
If she can ever recover. .
If she can look at her own reflection and not think of him
Or what he thinks of her...

....for a second....

If she didn't despise herself.
Sometimes slapping her face to wake up from this insanity..
If she can ever mute his stinky words and grins
If there were a re-set button to re-set her life
To fast forward this pain,
This agony,
This phase that she was in..
To heal..
To move on,
To never ever look back.
Or relapse.. back to his freaky lab..

How many times did she try?
Promised her self she would never look back...
And she was back
Because she was
a junkie..
His junkie
A beautiful junkie who didnt know her worth..
A broken bird.  with broken wings
that couldnt go far or fly
her wings;
injured..
Cut off.
Or maybe she forgot they exist
.
Because for so long ..
so long....
She blamed herself
For being
A culprit
an accomplice, 
Didn't she break her own wings with her own hands..?
Didnt she submit to him ? Cave in to him..?
Didn't she come back willingly when she could've run..?

Maybe..
She was deceived
Maybe
She was Brainwashed
And Maybe
She thought this was love. ..real love

Isnt love..
A-sacrificing
B-undrestanding
And
C- for better or worse?

Maybe this was worse..
Maybe she was too weak to handle the worse..

But deep down..
That voice remained..
Reminding her
No matter how hard she tried to silence it,  kill it, justify it
It was too loud
Too deafening.

So she...
cried on it
slept on it,
Prayed on it..
Google search on it;

"What is a toxic relationship?
How do you know if you're in a toxic relationship
Who is a narcissist?
What are the sings of narcissistic personality disorder?
How do I deal with a narcissist?
Is it possible to love a narcissist?
Am I too weak ?"

And maybe she was new to this love thing

But this is what google search said:

Dear junki,
his junkie,
beautiful junkie,

I CAN'T tell you what love is
but I can certainly tell you what love isnt:
1-love isnt suppose to hurt or make you fear
2-love isnt a power struggle where you exercise you superiority over your mate
3-love isn't criticism,  belittling,  controlling, or supressing
4-love isnt supposed to bring you down to your knees
5-love isnt comparing you to others in an evil ploit to make you feel less
6-a lover doesn't exploit you, or your secrets and use them against you
7-love doesn't equate to obsession or possession

And so she stood up
Towering him and her own fears
Her abandonment issues
Her co-dependency...
She was no longer the prisoner of his whims and needs
And so she decided to break free. 

She was..
the prize,
the moon,
the sun,
the universe,
and the skies..

And no one could ever, ever, AGAIN tell her OTHERWISE .

By: Asia Aboosy